Kwinoveli ezayo kaCathy Wang, i-Imposter Syndrome, intlola yaseRussia inyuka inyuka isiya kuluhlu lweshishini letekhnoloji ukuze ibe yi-COO eTangerine (i-Google riff), ngelixa omnye wabangaphantsi kwakhe efumanisa ukuba sesichengeni sokhuseleko, enikezela ukudlala. Incwadi ibetha kwiishelufu nge-25 kaMeyi, kodwa i-EW iya kube yabelana ngezahluko ezisixhenxe zokuqala ngokukodwa kwiwebhusayithi yethu kwiindawo ezintathu. Funda isicatshulwa sokuqala esingezantsi.
Nanini na uLev Guskov wadibana nomntu onomdla, wayethanda ukubuza abazali bakhe imibuzo. Ukuba impendulo yeyobulumko, uya kubhala, yaye ukuba ucinga ukuba uya kunikela ingqalelo engakumbi, uya kuqinisekisa ukuba ingxelo yembali yentsapho yalowo mbandela igqityiwe. Nangona uLeo engakholelwa ukuba abazali abalungileyo bayafuneka kumsebenzi onemveliso. Enyanisweni, emsebenzini wakhe, abazali ababi bahlala bebonisa impumelelo. Ukuqaphela kwangaphambili ubunzima, ukoyisa le ntaba yokudumala kunye noloyiko, inkonzo, ukunyaniseka kunye nomnqweno wokugqithisa okulindelweyo, ukuba kuphela ukuvunywa okwakunqatshelwe ngaphambili.
Apho ehleli khona ngoku, kwiholo yeyunivesithi elunxwemeni loMlambo iMoskva, uLev ujikelezwe ngabazali bakhe (abalungileyo nababi). Wayenesithukuthezi, evumela izikhalazo ezingenanjongo ukuba zibumbe ubomi baseMoscow: Indlela yaseMoscow Ring yalibaziseka ngeeyure ezimbini, iikomkomere ezibiza kakhulu kwiivenkile zegrosari, ugqirha wesikhumba ongasebenziyo kwikliniki karhulumente engazange avume ukuhlala kude kube sebusuku kwaye aye kuxilongwa. umoya wakhe, wathi kufuneka athathe isidlo sasemini ekhaya. Kwafuneka ndife kuba umfazi wakhe wayengakwazi ukuba ngumgcini wendlu. …?
Kwiminyaka embalwa edlulileyo, uLeo wayekwiqonga kwigumbi elifanayo kunye nomama wakhe kumqolo ongemva ebambe iitulips. Kwiveki kamva, wafika kwisakhiwo esinemigangatho engamashumi amabini esisembindini weMoscow kusuku lwakhe lokuqala emsebenzini. Kwi-lobby kukho i-plaque yobhedu ene-initials: SPb. INkonzo yoKhuseleko lweSizwe. Intloko yeenkonzo ezintathu ezinkulu ezikhethekileyo zaseRashiya.
Kushushu phandle ngoku, nto leyo ethetha ukuba iholo selizofutha. Ugxa wakhe uLeo kwi-inning yesibhozo, uPyotr Stepanov, wagxumela ngasekunene kwakhe. UPeter wayemde yaye ebhityile, yaye kweso situlo esibhityileyo wayefana nemela, iingalo zakhe ezisikwe nemilenze yakhe ebhijeneyo ifakwe kakuhle esithubeni. “Kunjani ngale nto?” U-Peter wabuza, ebonisa ngobuchule, nangona u-Leo wayesele eyazi ukuba uthetha bani. Umphambili oblond, iinwele ezinde esinqeni.
“Ubucinga ukuba bendijonga ubuso nje?” UPetros wabonakala ekhubekile. “Jonga umbala wakhe.” Ubhekisa kwibhanti eblowu natyheli emagxeni akhe. ULeo unalo kwibhokisi ekwishelufu ephezulu kwigunjana lakhe.
“Owu, yeyiphi indoda elula.” Wangqiyama phambili uPetros. Emva koko amathuba ayanda. Ngaphaya, intloko ebomvu ngasekunene. Ukhangeleka ngcono kuno blonde, kwaye naphantsi kwaloo ngubo ixegayo usenokumxelela ukuba unomzimba owomeleleyo.” U-Leo wabona i-redhead okokuqala kwixesha elizayo xa ndingena kwaye ndamqaphela ngenxa yezizathu ezifanayo noPeter, nangona engazange athethe. NgoLwesihlanu ophelileyo, njengoko wayelungiselela ukuphuma emsebenzini, uPeter wamkhwelisa ukuba “ayeme ngokukhawuleza” kwindawo yehotele enefashoni, apho uLeo wayesela esona siselo singabizi kakhulu, ibhotile yamanzi anezimbiwa zaseGeorgia, kwaye uPeter wayeneentloni. ukurhuqa. ULeo wabuyela ekhaya emva kwasezinzulwini zobusuku, ngandlela-thile wayesenxilile, kodwa wafumana intombi yakhe uVera Rustamova ekhitshini. UVera ngumnxibelelanisi weqela leendaba likarhulumente iCentral Media yaseRashiya (RCM). Unelizwi le-ankile yeendaba, elinzulu kwaye lithambile, anokuthi alikhuphele kwiithowuni ezichanekileyo ezingavumiyo. “Hayi, hayi yena.”
“Yintoni, ayintle ngokwaneleyo? Ukuba ufuna enye into, andazi ukuba kufanelekile na ukuzingela kwisebe lesayensi yekhompyuter. ”
UPetros wacinga ngako. “Ngoko ufuna ukuba sisidenge kwaye ube mbi, andithi? Andiyazi into oyenzayo, kodwa kwixesha elizayo uza kundithabatha kuhambo lwakho lokuya kuhlola.”
ULeo akazange ayive yonke into. Umema uPeter nje ukuba abe noluntu, abelane ngesizathu sokushiya iofisi - uLeo akanaxinzelelo oluncinci lokuqesha njengoko eqhube kakuhle kulo nyaka kwaye wanyusa ii-asethi ezininzi. Omnye nguBashkir kwaye usesekuqeqesheni, ngelixa abanye babini babazalwana abakhutheleyo: umntakwabo omdala ungumpheki ophumeleleyo kwaye ngoku usebenza kwihotele yaseLondon ehlala e-Saudi royals, kwaye udadewabo usebenzela igqwetha eSt. ULeo uvuke ekuseni enentloko eqhekekayo kwaye khange abe nasibindi sokuza.
Kodwa ngoku uyavuya kuba eye wawenza umgudu. Emva kwemiboniso: umqolo wesine ukusuka ekhohlo. Iinwele ezithambileyo ezimdaka ngebala, ulusu oluluthuthu, kunye namehlo amancinane namnyama agqobhozayo zimnika inkangeleko ekhohlakeleyo. Lingakanani ixesha eligqithileyo? Iminyaka elithoba? Shumi? Wayemazi ke yena.
Bawabiza ngokuba ngamaziko ophando, kodwa eneneni angamakhaya eenkedama, iindawo zokuhlala zabantwana abangafunwayo. Izakhiwo ezikhulu ezikumgangatho ophantsi ezinempahla enomhlwa neekhaphethi ezigugileyo, iibhutsi ezinzima neziporo eziphantsi kwesitulo esinamavili, abanini bazo abakwishumi elivisayo abasebenzisa oomatshini abafana nabatyibilizi. Uninzi lwala maziko abekwe kwizixeko ezikhulu kwaye ngamanye amaxesha ngaphandle kwezixeko ezikhulu. ULeo waqala wadibana noYulia kuhambo oluya komnye wabo.
Wayekhangela inkwenkwe. Oyena mdala, kunzima kuba amakhwenkwe adla ngokukhuliswa eselula ukuba omelele. Lo msebenzi ucekeceke yaye ubalulekile, ubandakanya unozakuzaku waseKhanada nomfazi wakhe. Bangabantu abahlonel’ uThixo, ngokukodwa umfazi, owavakalisa injongo yakhe yokubamkela ngaphambi kokuba babuyele eOttawa ngokusisigxina: besabela ubizo lukaThixo nokunika eminye imiphefumlo engafunwayo elinye ithuba.
Abantwana babizelwa kwigumbi eliqhelekileyo ngumlawuli weziko, umongikazi otyhafileyo uMaria, ogama lakhe lalingenakuqinisekiswa. ULeo ucela uMaria ukuba ayalele wonke umntu ukuba azazise kwaye aphinde isivakalisi kwincwadi ayithandayo.
Ngomdlalo wesithoba, ingqalelo kaLeo yaqala ukutshintsha. Wayigcina inkangeleko yobuso, wagcina ejonge emehlweni, waza wanikela ingqalelo epheleleyo njengoko oyena mntu wayemgqala njengoyena uthembisayo wayesiya phambili, inkwenkwe eneenwele zomququ ezikhule zaya kutsho esifubeni sikaLeo.
“Igama lam ndinguPavel,” yatsho inkwenkwe. “Eyona ncwadi ndiyithandayo yindoda ebhulowu. Unezihlunu kwaye uyakwazi ukubhabha.” UPavel wavala amehlo akhe ngokungathi ucinga. “Andikhumbuli nelimdaka.”
Uthe xa sele eza kuhamba uLeo weva ngokuphathwa wajika wajonga le ntombazana. Wayemfutshane, eneenkophe ezibhityileyo ezijinga ezidleleni ezithe tyibilili kunye nempumlo ethe tyaba, amashiya atyebileyo nangalawulekiyo amnika inkangeleko ethile ephambeneyo. “Ungandisa apho.
“Bendijonge enye into namhlanje,” watsho uLeo, ngaphakathi ethe khunubembe njengoko wayeqonda ukuba uvakala ngathi unosilarha uyala iqhekeza lenyama. "Uxolo. Mhlawumbi kwixesha elizayo".
“Ndingaphila,” watsho engashukumi. “Ndinomdla kakhulu, kakhulu ekwenzeni umsebenzi olungileyo. Andiyi kuthetha into eyenziwa nguPawulos. Ulungile ukuba umshiye.
Wayewonwabile ngamazwi akhe. “UPavel ayikuphela kwenkwenkwe” “Ubamba inqindi xa unikel’ ingqalelo. Uyenze kwasekuqaleni xa u Sophia engqiyame ngeti. Wayenxiba ijezi kuphela xa sineendwendwe, uyazi."
Ngephanyazo, uLeo wolula isandla sakhe ngasemva. Wayiyeka kancinci, eziva ehlekisa. Waguqa waza wasebeza, “Uthe unokuwenza, kodwa awazi ukuba hlobo luni lomsebenzi endibuza ngawo.”
"Lithini igama lakho?" Wabona uSophia, umfazi odumileyo we-V-neck, ejikeleza kufuphi, ephaphile kwaye enethemba; wayesazi ukuba kufuneka amadoda, kodwa nokuba sisiphi isini, eli ziko labuyiselwa kuye wonke umntwana owamkelwa liZiko leSibhozo.
Kwadlula isithunzi ebusweni bakhe. “Bendilapha ubomi bam bonke,” walungisa umqala wakhe. “Uyazi, nam ndiyakwazi ukucula.”
“Musa ukuyenza. Akukho ndlela igwenxa yokwenza ezinye iilwimi. Ngokwenene ngumbono olungileyo kakhulu.” Waphakama wathandabuza wambambazela intloko. "Mhlawumbi sizokubona kamva."
Wathabatha inyathelo elincinane waza ngobuchule wala wambamba. "Nini?" "Andaz. Mhlawumbi kunyaka ozayo. Okanye olandelayo.”
Ngoku bahleli ubuso ngobuso kwigumbi elingemva kwevenkile yeentsimbi zeNSA. Le yindawo kaLeo engekho semthethweni – akukho mntu wumbi kwisebe othanda ukuyisebenzisa, kuba ikude, eMitino. Ukutyhubela iminyaka, uye wahlengahlengisa isilungiselelo: wagcina ifoto yephulo lomongameli wangoku xa efika kwaye akafuni, wayisusa inkunkuma kaGorbachev, nangona ngempazamo washiya ipowusta enye kuphela ngekhathuni enxilisayo isilivere. Ububi bomzimba nomphefumlo wakho bubhalwe phantsi, kwaye uLeo ngamaxesha athile uyacula, ezigalela iwayini yena noVera. IGollum.
“Uyakhumbula undibona?” Washukuma, sabe isitulo satsho isandi esingemnandanga phantsi. “Kwakukudala oko.”
“Ewe,” watsho uJulia, yaye uLeo wazipha ixesha lokumfundisisa ngenyameko. Ngelishwa, uJulia akalohlobo lomntwana oqhelekileyo oneempawu zobuso ezikhula (nangona kumava kaLeo, oyena usebenza nzima akanakuze abe ngumntwana ogqibeleleyo oneminyaka elishumi). Ebenxibe ilokhwe ebomvu yoboya ebomvu ngathi yeyentombazana encinci, ebephethe ne paper bag enokutya uLeo enuka kuyo isonka esishushu nesonka samasi. Sloykas, wacebisa. Isisu sagquma.
"Ingaba kusenje?" Nangona wayeyazi impendulo, ngoku - kwiveki emva kokuphumelela - wayenefayile epheleleyo kuye.
"Kwaye uyayazi into eyenziwa yiSPB." Ukumjonga ngononophelo, kuba kulapho kutyhilwa khona inxalenye yesakhono sakhe. Nangona ekuqaleni babetsalwe yimincili, ukuva okuthile ngamagama abo okwenene noonobumba babo kwabonakala kubenza baphinda bacingisisa. Kungakhathaliseki ukuba basebenza nzima kangakanani kwi-SPB, banokuba kude namehlo akhe kwaye izono zabo azibhalwanga.
"Ewe. Khona ufuna ntoni?" Ilizwi lakhe belinzima, ngathi uxakeke baninzi abantu abaza kudibana bagqibezele udliwano-ndlebe, nangona uLeo ebesazi ngcono. Ukuba uJulia wayephumelele ngembeko, wayenokufumana umsebenzi kwinkampani yezonxibelelwano, mhlawumbi nakwizizwe ngezizwe, kodwa idiploma yakhe yasekholejini iqinisekisa ukuba amathuba anjalo avaliwe.
“Ngoku akukho nto. Kufuneka ugcwalise amaphepha okhuseleko, ungene kuqeqesho lokuqala. Ke, ndicinga ukuba eyona nto iphambili iya kuba luqeqesho lwelizwi. ”
Kuwo wonke umsebenzi wakhe, uLeo usebenze nenqwaba yamadoda nabafazi abathi ngempazamo balinganisa ukuziphatha okubi namandla. Ngoku wayesazi ukuba kwakuyeyona nto ilungileyo ukuyiphelisa loo nkolelo ngoko nangoko. “Indlela othetha ngayo ayinyamezeleki.”
UJulia wafixiza. Kwathi cwaka, wajonga phantsi. "Ukuba ucinga ukuba ulwimi lwam oluthethwayo lubi, kutheni undifuna nje?" wagqiba wabuza ebuhlaza. “Kuba ayithethi ngenkangeleko yam.”
“Ndicinga ukuba ungumfazi ozingisayo,” watsho uLeo, esebenzisa igama elithi “mfazi” ngabom. "Oko, kunye nobuchule, yiloo nto endiyifunayo."
“Into endiyenzela umsebenzi wam kukwenza ipakethe. Iphakheji eyenziwe ngumntu ngenjongo ethile. Ndiyanidinga ke, ukuba niqiniseke, ningenantandabuzo; ingxaki ayikho kwilizwi lakho, kodwa kwindlela othetha ngayo. Akukho ubuhle. ukuba kweli ziko ixesha elide kuba xa sasiqala ukudibana, kwakungekho kubi kangako.”
“Ndiyicule le ngoma,” watsho, kwaye uLeo waqonda ukuba kufuneka akhumbule phantse zonke iinkcukacha zonxibelelwano lwabo lokuqala. Mhlawumbi wayesele enethemba kangangeminyaka yokuba wayeza kuphinda avele. "ngesiNgesi."
“Ewe, nezakhono zakho zolwimi zintle kakhulu. Ngomqeqeshi wokuphucula indlela yokubiza amagama, phantse utyibilika. Awunakuze uyisuse ngokupheleleyo intetho yakho, kodwa uya kumangaliswa koko unokukufumana ngoqeqesho olunzulu. .”
Walinda uJulia ukuba abuze isizathu sokuba isiNgesi sibaluleke kangaka, kodwa wazibamba. “Ke undixelele ukuba ndiza kuba ngumqeqeshi welizwi kwaye ndizakufunda isiNgesi kakuhle. Kuthiweni ke ngoko?
“Mhlawumbi siyalwenza uqeqesho lwentsebenzo. Akukho ziqinisekiso. Kwinqanaba ngalinye, ukusebenza kwakho kuyavavanywa. "
Wanikina intloko. “Ukuba ulungile, uyakuqala isigaba esilandelayo. Sikhonze ilizwe lethu, ngokufihlakeleyo, ngaphandle…”
"Kulungile, uphi?" kwakukho inzondelelo ekufuneni kwakhe ukwazi. Ungumntwana nje, wacinga njalo uLeo. Ukrwada, kodwa usengumntwana.
“Singazichonga izixeko kamva. Sinabantu eBerkeley naseStanford. Ukuze ufumane i-visa, kufuneka ubhalise kwiinkqubo zesidanga. "
“Yintoni, awucingi ukuba i-intanethi imnandi?” Andilulo uhlobo lomntu ojonga ikhompyutha imini yonke.
“Ke, mhlawumbi unokongeza into oyithandayo. I-boom entsha iyeza. Ndifuna uqalise inkampani yetekhnoloji. Inkampani yokwenyani yaseSilicon Valley enekomkhulu lendawo. ”
"Ewe. Umdlali osebenzayo ngokwaneleyo ukutsala abatyali-mali abalungileyo. Abatyalomali baya kuba ngundoqo, ngakumbi ekuqaleni. Kubo uya kufumana iziphakamiso ezivela kwabanye oosomashishini, amaqabane - i-ecosystem yendawo, ngoko kuthetha. Inxalenye yenkqubo. Siyibiza ngokuba yibhulorho.” Ngaphandle kwakukhala iimpondo kunye nentswahla yeendawo zokwakha. Mhlawumbi i-metro, uLeo wacinga, yayisoloko ithenjiswe ukuba yakhiwe. Walinda impendulo kaJulia, awayecinga ukuba iyamkhuthaza. Ukhumbula okokuqala ephefumlela umoya ngaphandle kwaseSan Francisco, ubumnandi bemiphunga yakhe - wakhawuleza wabuqhela, waza wabuthatha lula de wabuyela kwinqwelomoya. Kodwa uJulia akazange ancume ngokukhawuleza okanye olunye uphawu lomdla, watsala ikhola yakhe. Wadlalisa umqhaphu ngezandla zakhe, amehlo akhe evuleke ethe ntsho etafileni. “Uwabonile amabanga am,” watsho.
“Hmm,” waphefumla. “Ngoko sele usazi ukuba andinayo italente. Kangangexesha elithile, ndandicinga ukuba nangona ndandingayithandi iklasi yam, ndandinokuqhubeka ndifunda ngokuzimisela, kodwa oko kwakunganelanga.”
U-Leo wamangaliswa: wayengalindelanga ukuba avume ukungafaneleki kwakhe. Kodwa oko kuthetha ukuba ulungile ngakumbi malunga nokufaneleka kwakhe njenge-asethi. Ewe, kulungile ukuba neengcaphephe zekhompyuter, kodwa umntu onjalo akafuni ukusebenza — kuyo nayiphi na imeko, abantu abangaphezulu komndilili e-US basondele ekubeni ziingcaphephe.
“Andifuni ngcali. Izakhono ezithile zobugcisa. Usebenza nzima, undixelele into oyiyo. "
"Hayi. Uya kukwenza konke oku. Yakha inkampani kwaye uyikhokele” “Kodwa besele ndikuxelele, andikwazi kujongana necandelo lobugcisa” “Ungazikhathazi ngalo” Wajonga iwotshi yakhe. Isinyithi
Ixesha lokuposa: Sep-15-2022